Maths Daythis morning, zh gave me a
morning call at nine plus :D
"wei wake up already. dont sleep alrdy hor! qi chuang le!" (or sth like that)
and then i mumbled some stuff like "dont want la. little while more..."
and went back to sleep.
but zh was v v nice & he called me a few more times to check if i was awake (i wasn't)
haha and in the end i woke up at
12 plus :P (which is still earlier than my normal wake-up time)
argh. i hate my super-nonexistent level of self-discipline!
it's screwing my life up.
today was/is Maths Day.
and like the previous few Maths Days, i placed all my maths stuff on the table & tried to study.
but i just cldn't get myself to study the subject. so i ended up doing nothing.
AGAIN.i think it's mathematiphobia. :(
i need to start getting serious about my studies. like seriously.
since i've entered HC, it's like i've stopped caring bout my grades anymore.
my results have been horrid & it doesn even seem to affect me.
argh. & i've studied next to nothing for this blocks & i'm not even the least bit stressed.
maybe it's my way of escaping.
so that if i do badly i can blame it on the fact that i didn study.
mayb i'm just scared that even if i study, i'll do badly.
and then i can only blame it on my stupidity.
i just read ber's blog and i really agree with sth he said.
"but one thing im sure is that everybody only goes through teenage years once.n i wun wanna exchange all my teenage yrs for books n notes as much as it can help me secure a better future."that said, i'll still start studying soon! i promise.
after blocks i'll get serious. (i know i say this after every exam, but this time i wont break my promise!)
please let me feel some stress soon!
for all those ppl under immense levels of stress now,
don't worry!tadaa!
(haha my new pencil box- courtesy of ivan :))
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