this does not feel like the end of As
this does not feel like the end of As
this does not feel like the end of As
i felt so detached when the examiner announced the end of our As in the hall just now.
haha i think my brain didn't really register the start.
studying for As have been amazingly stress-free most of the time.
not that i'm prepared, mind you.
just that i think i've lost the motivation to work hard for my future.
(and i honestly can't convince myself that 4As are the most important thing in the world and w/o them i will
DIE.)
yup. so it just feels like yet another hc exam i've botched.
like what kimby said," it's just As. Just the most important exam in our life." haha
these 2 months flew/zoom/whatever by so quickly, it's almost surreal.
but i'm glad it's over. (:
i think i've learnt alot these 2 months.
i've learnt things bout academics, bout ppl, bout myself.
i learnt that the GC helps you integrate stuff (which made my life a hell lot easier thankyouverymuch),
i finally found out what bright & dark fringes are (no, not the hair you idiot),
i learnt that i've been pronouncing 'anode' & 'cathode' wrongly my entire sec-sch-and-jc-life,
i discovered comfort food i never knew existed (:
digress: my mother bought some pastry-like thingies called Bei Teh Soh Cookies.
dont ask me why they have such a stupid horrible-sounding name, i dont know either.
but they're 100 calories a piece! and i consume them by the dozen. :(
i learnt new things bout myself and bout others.
and i really thank God for all the nice people in my life who constantly make me feel loved.
especially my mom.
the poor woman was more stressed than me.
she had to wake me up every morning (which is a highly arduous task as my lil brother will tell you), cook nice food for me, nag at me when i get hooked onto the internet
WHICH IS A BLACK HOLE, make sure the fridge and pantry are stocked with food, wake me up when i fall asleep while studying, yada yada yada.
i love you my dearest mother [:
so i heave a huge sigh of relief that everything's over now.
yes i do regret not giving it my best shot, but regret isn't gonna change anything is it?
which is why i'll play like shit now and worry only when the results are out. :D
but if i really end up having to retake As,
i'd give it my best i promise.
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