helluva rollercoaster ride.went to the airport to send
stella off to australia in the wee hours of the morning.
haha okay it wasn't that early actually. gonna miss that silly girl loads :(
stella ling please make yourself contactable on FB/Hotmail/msn(which i dont use haha)
met zh for breakfast, which turned into brunch, which turned into lunch and in the end we didn't eat anything coz we didn't have any appetite. most of us skipped lunch i think. haha who could have eaten with the release of results being only one hour later?
went back to hwachong to wait for the others to arrive and needless to say, our class was late
AGAIN. hahaha it's so typical 69. late for school, lectures, tutorials and even the release of results. 69 ftw :D
after the talk, we finally received our results. it was freaking scary man i was waiting in line for my turn and i almost started crying coz i was damn scared. (like O levels when i cried even before i saw my results) qiuyu was imba. she cried like a super duper number of times HAHAHA :D and she actually started
bawling when she saw her results and people in our vicinity all turned to gape at her. hilarious :D
anyway when i finally had the results slip in my hand, i refused to look at it. haha and everyone was like, "what did you get?!"
me:" i haven't looked at it yet!"
*half an hour later*
"so what did you get?"
me:"i still haven't looked at it!!"
haha and i got the slip @ 2.30pm and at 4 something i still didn't know my results!!!
i was just holding the darn slip in my hand and telling myself that i'd look at it at home.
then jon and unmac were so kaypoh they told me that they'd get my results from mdm ching and tell me! and i freaked out and left the hall and walked all the way to the bus stop and almost got on my bus when zh called me and told me that i should look at my results coz i'd be very happy.
and when i finally saw my results, i was like
"OMG I CANT BELIEVE IT!!!!!"
and i think no one could believe it either. hahahaha especially my mom who was prepared for the worst. and these few days she kept saying things like,"whatever happens, it's okay we'll think of a way." and "no matter what, you have to come home kay?" haha. my folks and i were expecting so much less that i think i was more relieved than overjoyed when i saw my results.
i cant fully put my feelings into words. in my whole 19 years of life, i've never truly regretted anything that i've done. ever. even the mistakes which i've made. i embraced the experience as part of growing up. but these few days have been awful. i kept thinking bout what'd happen if i really screwed up. i thought of the alternatives i had. and for the first time in my entire life, i felt a deep sense of regret.
but thankfully it's all over now [: i told myself that if by some stoke of luck i managed to do okay for As, i'll give my best in whatever i have to do in future. i prayed for a miracle and i got it, and for that i'm extremely grateful to Him [: [:
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